VARYING..

Sometimes, Some Days...you just walk into your class, feeling SUPER optimistic, SUPER excited for something to happen...basically,in a Hyper state of mind.
This, sometimes, make you feel like hugging people around and going like "HEYYY!! IM ALIIIIIIIVE!!!"
:P
but then again,
There are some days, you walk into your class , and you know (even if it is not true) that .."NAHIIIII!! NOTHING'S GONNA GO RIGHT TODAY!!!!"

Basically, there is no such day, where you can be super depressed , and act like a Martyr....Having Awesome Friends around you helps a lot! BELIEVE ME!

Well, Some things people say, can  make you go "AWWWWW!"
well..ITS FAKE. :)
Face it, Why would ANYONE go "awwww???!!"
Makes me wonder if the things I actually say are all that cute, or they just want a Silk......!!!

The other things that people say, can make you want to Punch them in the face right there.
LOL! not possible....is it? ;)
(not if there are witnesses around)

Everyone has Mood Swings.
Trick is....COPE WITH 'EM! :)

Make people around you feel better, even if they are mainly faking ....trying to grab eyeballs..or whatever! :)
Let them have their fun....
At the End of the Day, You are the winner,
YOU made the choice to see everyone around you happy! :)
YOU spread the smile :)

That, now.....will surely make You smile too :)



Sincerely,
A true Cancerian
Prone to Mood Swings.
Aditi Sharma :)

You And Me

I Remember Myself as an "US" 

Wispy clouds, A Bright Moon, 

Yet Dull, Beside You I Stood,

Speechless, Bound by Your Hand.......

Wispy Clouds, A Bright Moon,

Yet Dull, Beside You I Stood,

Mesmerised into Silence............

Wispy Clouds, A Bright Moon,

Yet Dull, Beside You I Stood,

Happy And Content, Holding Your Hand..................

Wispy Clouds, A Bright Moon,

Yet Dull, Beside You I Stood,

A Silent Promise Kept........

"I'll Stay By You ....FOREVER" 

HEART WINS... (yet again)

                                                                                                    

Ego-     " WHY ARE YOU SAYING SORRY??" 

Mind-    " IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE!!! " 

Heart-   " i don't want to lose you to someone less special!" 

Mind-    " why do you think i'm here for?" 

Ego-     * faded away *

Heart-   "i don't know,but definitely not to involve in decisions regarding people!" 

Mind-    " heart....!!...WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT PEOPLE??...HOW MANY TIMES CAN YOU MAKE A 

            FOOL OF YOURSELF?" 

Heart-   "as many times as is required by the person....." 

Mind-    *sigh*

Heart-   "love" 

THE ME : The Heart Wins...Yet Again..!! :) and so does Love! :D

A RED BALLET SHOE

Alongside the fire......
A dance in a ballet shoe,

A book on a cold window sill,
Untouched, Unread...

A still sheet of Music,
Ruffled by my breath...

A piano, Dusty and Old,
Unplayed from years Unknown....

A Creaky, Old, Wooden Floorboard,
Bringing back memories of Shiny, Black Polished Shoes....

A Yellowing, Ancient Tablecloth, Lacey, and perfect,
Convincing me of Fairy tales and Princesses.....

A Wind chime sounding in the Room,
Now, I can Hear Your Flute......

A Rusty Old Lock,
That was Never meant to be opened....

A Clock still Ticking,
Thinking " How Long it has been"......

A Little Shiver Down My spine,
Reminding Me of the Past.....

A Rustle of the Curtain,
And your Sweeping Gown.....

A Musty, Old Bookshelf,
Oh.. the Books You've Read......

A Tingle Down My spine,
Reminding Me; You're Gone......

Alongside The Fire....I still Remember,
A Dance In a Red Ballet Shoe.........

SUNSET...not the end of the day, but a mark to show the end of a successful day,and the rise of another :)

A day starts with a Sunrise.. and ends with a Sunset.
The end of one day...charecterised by a Sunset..is not the end of a day...it means so many other things....
things that can be forgotten during the night....things that we have to remember for the next day...(e.g; chemistry numerical concepts!! :P)
Many people may say..."ohh God!...another day has ended"
but well,according to me...the Sunset of one day indicates the ending of a successful day...(or a not so successful day) and the rise of another!...
Ther Sunrise brings with it a sense of warmth and new oppurtunities :)...
yeah.. i know i sound like a philosopher right now... but well...hey! thats what i think! :)
I derive great pleasure from seeing the Sunsets... yeah. true..it makes me want to think twice about what i have done that day. and wheather it is right or no.!!!!!

thank you Dearest SUNSET....for making my life so clear for me :)


THESE ARE PHOTOGRAPHS I HAVE TAKEN FROM THE ROOFTOP :D

WATER........

Ever since my childhood, i Loved Water... it somehow inspires me.
the way it shapes itself into any vessel..... it shows me how to adjust into any surroundings!
I used to have an aquarium... i loved it. It was my favourite passtime to gaze at the eight goldfishes and one black molly.... but what was surprising was that, Now when i recall those memories, that have pressed themselves like photographs in my memory; i remember that i was not really looking at the fishes... yeah they were graceful and all...
like God had made them to be, but i was looking at the water....the way the fishes CUT the water,to make way for themselves... the way the Water never got HURT, the way it willingly moved aside...
it did not allow itself to be hurt by anything. It just flowed....kept on flowing...
NO i would not say in a careless or carefree way... it did take care ... but took care of itself, in a way that it was not obvious.



I went to this lake.. once a long time ago, with my aunt uncle and two sisters.
it is called "Rammappa Kaluva" or something like that..yeah below is a photograph of it...(taken through the camera of my cellphone..hence, not so clear)



in this lake.. my sister, being naughty as always.. tried to throw a pebble into the calm depths of the peaceful lake,of course it would cause ripples...
i was , dont ask me why.. , kind of disgruntled.
Why should the girl throw a pebble? why ??!!!
oh why on earth would she want to disturb a peaceful soul?! far actually, that was what had passed in my mind. but it would look really foolish to stop the girl from having her fun!
she kept on throwing the stones...somehow she ENJOYED wreaking havoc in the peace of the waters!!
well... she is a kid, having her share of fun! :D i would not stop her!





Well... but at that moment, i understood, that how many ever fishes are under the water,it never shows...a FAINT ripple is caused..a FAINT one when a fish comes up and decides to peek its nose (if it has one)



Water has inspired me to be what i am... or what i HOPE i AM
and i also hopes it keeps inspiring me too :)

STAY CLEAR !!

Dear Darkness... stay clear of me! i know you too well You can decieve me no more!
i know what you have done and what you may be planning to do...just you wait !
I'll show you who wins...i have warned you...heed well
Farewell....darkness


(the darkness... is towards the left of the image.. the light.. which helps people win is towards the right of the image... the winners are the people on the boat.. hopefully it includes me. )

SISTERLY LOVE.............cute :)

A week or two ago, my aunt and her two daughters came over to my place.
The elder one..was sitting on a chair "drawing" with my crayons, meanwhile.. this little one had come and was trying to bully her sister off the chair so she could take her place. I tried to stop her, well... u know i'm not good at handling kids :D !
but what shocked me was that the eldser one did not whine....like she usually does, instead she lifted her sister onto the chair and willingly got up from the chair!
the little one scattered all the crayons across the floor and when i started picking them up, the elder one came to me and said "paravaledu akka nenu teestanu, nuvvu elli kucho" which means- its ok big sister, u go and sit, i will pick up all the crayons.
i was really shocked. usually she starts crying and cursing! i watched her patiently retrieving all the crayons. when she did, the little one beckoned to her and made her sit on the same chair .....

it was so touching... so cute :)

Kitne lamhoon ne
Mujhko ho jaise hairaan kiya
Kitni batoon ne
Dil ko aake hai chuu liya

-wake up sid (aaj kal zindagi)

it was something i had been missing from the very beggining, i have no sisters ,no brothers..... that minute i realised..... how much ever they both fight or curse each other, they will always love eachother :)
the feeling that there is some other person apart from your parents, who cares for you and whom you can care for... is wonderful :)
proof of sisterly love
:D

ALL FOR CRYING OUT LOUD

dearest happiness,
how are you? im fine thanks to you.
would you mind giving me a bit more of you?
thanking you
lots of love
aditi

this is something of a letter ... i am going to write to happiness..sounds insane?
of course it is! what else do you think is possible??????

well... my boards are DONE :D one thing...
number two- i have loads of free time
number three- i know i can do anything in want in these holidays
number four-ok...* big list alert* :D
so yeah , number four - loads of things to do!
number five... okay ur bored, but yes , u have to listen! u are MINE :D
*evil grin* i have loads of things to do
number six- shut up now and listen dear!! :D - i get a chance to do something ...and that something being organising the HPSMUN , well considering the fact that i have never tested myself in the field of organisation, im hoping i will be able to do it well !
and there is a bigger list , i know you know all of them..... its nice to tell you still, once in a while.. thanks for listening me out !!
love you
aditi

A DAY...UNFORGETABLE..

HEY AGAIN PEOPLE
i like ..to write in my blog all that i cannot tell people....
have you ever seen a picture..from your life.. imprinted in your head...like a photograph you want to get rid of? oh well what i am writing about is another such thing.!!!
days of our sports day practice in 10th class.. of course it had been cancelled.
this particular day... we were called for some shotput selections. we went.
when i was walking back .. i saw a scene... my best friend meghana was with me..she is in a different class...but we are still best friends :D
her classmates (and mine) were sitting in groups. i mean.. a circle.. chit chatting etc..:D they had left a place for meghana..
when i went near my friends, lo and behold, no one moved to give me place... i had to sit outside the "circle"...
now.. i let it not show..but really .. it does hurt! :(
i now remember my sports day practice ( that particular day) as a day..no a photograph..showing things...i thought i imagined,but which were really true..
two groups...both of which i liked...none leaving a place for me..
an unwelcome stranger... after all those years of "being friendly" and "trying to be nice"....
how simply very ... appealing???!!

MY drawings!!!........MY wish!!!! :D

hello again. the old aditi is back now.. i have learnt that worrying about those exams is a waste. i hope i have not bored you in the past two or three entries. anyway! i'm back with a bang!! :D well thats partly because i began drawing again. i love shading. give me a book and a 6B pencil and i'll sit with it for hours. everything i like can be seen in my drawings.
i am ashamed to admit that i do not know how to draw humans .... but i also have to admit that i have no intrest to draw them. i however draw most things of nature. i know they are not very nice but looking at them makes me feel nice. i draw because i want to draw.
there was a poem - the frog and the nightingale, in our literature textbook. this had a lot of effect on me. i felt was it - "frog and ADITI" hahaha!..
well it was actually like that. my parents have taught me that critisicsm must be treated as the steps to success and i..... u know.. i'm a mad girl.... took critisicm seriously and i really tried to change my drawing style. this, did not give them the grace they had before. i learnt, draw when you want to. you know what? it is very hard to drwa when you dont want to.
you must be wondering, (i hope to have created atleast that much intrest) then what about those drwaings with the changed style then?... well i kept them safely. so, they remind me of the lesson i have learnt from them.
i must admit, they were good , but lacked the charm which I like. I draw for MY sake now!! :)
well anyway. in my next entry, i plan to show you my drawings and i sincerely hope you like them. well they really are not very nice .. but just have a look at them !! :)
ok then, keep smiling all of you! and remember....do things which you like to do, not what others want you to do.
here is one of my favourite one liners....
"you are not responsible for what people think about you , but you are responsible for what you give people to think about you. "

Time = running out!! :(

THINGS i have never imagined could happen happened!.
i dont know... i did so badly in my maths paper of the 1st term exams. i managed quite well !!...but what!! imagine my astonishment when i saw my math answer sheet ..i was in the deepest of miseries!.. i hated myself. i tried to study more ..but how much ever i studied , i found the need to study more. there is this excellent text book of math written by R.D Sharma, i tried doing a few of those sums, and voila! not even one sum was right!..
i dont know what is going to happen to me in the board exams!!
i hope i can pass atleast. my dad told me to get above 95 % !.. n i'm trying..i only hope that my efforts will be fruitful!

Life Gives You What You Expect!

It is true! life always gives you what you expect from it.

Only, we fail to notice it after it has been given. The negative thoughts inside us take up all the space within and leave no place for positive and good thoughts. Imagining that you do not want to lie gives you "I want to lie". Imagining that you want to speak the truth gives you "I will always tell the truth." -  that's a bit of positive thinking!

This simple thing has changed lives. Or so, they say.