A DAY...UNFORGETABLE..

HEY AGAIN PEOPLE
i like ..to write in my blog all that i cannot tell people....
have you ever seen a picture..from your life.. imprinted in your head...like a photograph you want to get rid of? oh well what i am writing about is another such thing.!!!
days of our sports day practice in 10th class.. of course it had been cancelled.
this particular day... we were called for some shotput selections. we went.
when i was walking back .. i saw a scene... my best friend meghana was with me..she is in a different class...but we are still best friends :D
her classmates (and mine) were sitting in groups. i mean.. a circle.. chit chatting etc..:D they had left a place for meghana..
when i went near my friends, lo and behold, no one moved to give me place... i had to sit outside the "circle"...
now.. i let it not show..but really .. it does hurt! :(
i now remember my sports day practice ( that particular day) as a day..no a photograph..showing things...i thought i imagined,but which were really true..
two groups...both of which i liked...none leaving a place for me..
an unwelcome stranger... after all those years of "being friendly" and "trying to be nice"....
how simply very ... appealing???!!

OH MY GOD! WHEN AM I GONNA CHANGE?

oh boy!...i am in the midst of my board examinations...exams that are said to "make or break" someone's life... and here i am.. shamelessly sitting in front of the computer, updating my blog, just for the heck of it! WOW- i really must be mad..
anyway today, we had our maths exam..as usual.. i did quite well... but we shall know what is "well" after the results come! :D

wish me luck !!
:D

PHOTOGRPHY!!!

Well... what to say?? things i enjoy are mostly those creative kind of things which need concentration - yes lots of it... at least i believe so! anyway i like it that way..my photography "skills" may not be very nice but i am at least proud of myself that i can do that much! :D yeah.. people may think i'm complacent .. but i am not at all... i keep striving so hard to make my "things" "nice" and "cool" and all those things that people keep telling me..
now i take critisicm quite well , and you can be sure that those drawings have taught me my lesson.. but does that mean i have to be like everyone else??! nope.. i dont think so.. thats the reason i'm going to go my way and i shall do what I want to do!! :D

by the way, here are a few of my photographs.. these i took from the balcony of my house.. which has a grill so, i think it is really hard to take such photos.. i LOVED them what about you??

A Few of My Drawings

this is one of my latest...

this one.... was MY style!! :)

( by the way , all the pictures i am displaying are of MY style !! :) hope you like them!! )

HOW ARE THEY? IF YOU LIKE THEM PLEASE PUT A TICK IN THE LIKE IT OR NOT POLL!! :)

MY drawings!!!........MY wish!!!! :D

hello again. the old aditi is back now.. i have learnt that worrying about those exams is a waste. i hope i have not bored you in the past two or three entries. anyway! i'm back with a bang!! :D well thats partly because i began drawing again. i love shading. give me a book and a 6B pencil and i'll sit with it for hours. everything i like can be seen in my drawings.
i am ashamed to admit that i do not know how to draw humans .... but i also have to admit that i have no intrest to draw them. i however draw most things of nature. i know they are not very nice but looking at them makes me feel nice. i draw because i want to draw.
there was a poem - the frog and the nightingale, in our literature textbook. this had a lot of effect on me. i felt was it - "frog and ADITI" hahaha!..
well it was actually like that. my parents have taught me that critisicsm must be treated as the steps to success and i..... u know.. i'm a mad girl.... took critisicm seriously and i really tried to change my drawing style. this, did not give them the grace they had before. i learnt, draw when you want to. you know what? it is very hard to drwa when you dont want to.
you must be wondering, (i hope to have created atleast that much intrest) then what about those drwaings with the changed style then?... well i kept them safely. so, they remind me of the lesson i have learnt from them.
i must admit, they were good , but lacked the charm which I like. I draw for MY sake now!! :)
well anyway. in my next entry, i plan to show you my drawings and i sincerely hope you like them. well they really are not very nice .. but just have a look at them !! :)
ok then, keep smiling all of you! and remember....do things which you like to do, not what others want you to do.
here is one of my favourite one liners....
"you are not responsible for what people think about you , but you are responsible for what you give people to think about you. "

Time = running out!! :(

THINGS i have never imagined could happen happened!.
i dont know... i did so badly in my maths paper of the 1st term exams. i managed quite well !!...but what!! imagine my astonishment when i saw my math answer sheet ..i was in the deepest of miseries!.. i hated myself. i tried to study more ..but how much ever i studied , i found the need to study more. there is this excellent text book of math written by R.D Sharma, i tried doing a few of those sums, and voila! not even one sum was right!..
i dont know what is going to happen to me in the board exams!!
i hope i can pass atleast. my dad told me to get above 95 % !.. n i'm trying..i only hope that my efforts will be fruitful!

GUILT - THE BOA CONSTRICTOR

HPS(R) has its own charm...

1st term exams are fast approaching.. everything is like blank in my head. maths is like arabic... chemistry, harrappan language etc.. its been so hard to understand the maths ... i've begun to cry.. inever did in my life cry for such SILLY reasons..

crying dosent mean crying out. it is like deep in the heart there is always something that keeps on bothering you ... i hate that feeling.. i feel like screaming.. I HATE MATHS...

but i cant' because i like it.

i do not understand how i can hate and love the same thing at the same time...

maths keeps on eating my brain practically ... i cant understand it.. but once i do.. i cant let go of it!

what shall i do?

no one has an ansewr to this question..... life is in a mixer right now.. i have to go and try to do the maths now... cannot sit for a few minutes free , without feeling guilty that i was not able to do maths in this time..

i would like to end this right now... though thoughts keep coming into my head again and again..

i have to go before the guilt can consume my heart whole..

guilt ... THE BOA CONSTRICTOR!!